On the way home from rehearsal last night, I was messaging some of my friends and thinking about how lucky I was to be blessed with such amazing people in my life. For many, many years I didn’t really have anyone that I could talk to about my triumphs and my heartaches and I prayed and prayed that God would send me someone who would truly understand me, love me, and accept me. I expected someone to come up to me five minutes later and say “Hey, wanna be best friends?” But God does not work that way. His timing is perfect and completely up to Him. At 14 years old I met my first best friend. Then several more friends at almost 15. And at CYT, I was practically bombarded with people whose hearts were full of God’s love, and they each poured out that love to me. I was amazed. Shocked. A bit confused. But definitely thankful. I knew His timing had placed me where I needed to be in order to heal and grow from past hurts.
Thinking about all the people He had blessed me with, I started simply crying and saying, “God, I don’t deserve this! I don’t deserve their kindness and love!” And I was honestly right. The love shown to me comes straight from the presence of God in their lives and their desire to show His light to everyone they meet. But none of us deserve that love. None of us deserve His amazing grace. We are sinners. We do and say and think things that hurt Him, even when we don’t mean to. It is our sinful nature, the result of living in a fallen world. But nothing we can ever do will make Him love us any less. He came to Earth and died hanging on a tree after being brutally whipped and tortured because that is how deep His love is for us. Not a single person deserved that kind of love, yet He gave it to us anyway. He did all that so that we could live with Him for all eternity. That is a kind of love none of us can ever begin to fathom.
Thinking about all the people He had blessed me with, I started simply crying and saying, “God, I don’t deserve this! I don’t deserve their kindness and love!” And I was honestly right. The love shown to me comes straight from the presence of God in their lives and their desire to show His light to everyone they meet. But none of us deserve that love. None of us deserve His amazing grace. We are sinners. We do and say and think things that hurt Him, even when we don’t mean to. It is our sinful nature, the result of living in a fallen world. But nothing we can ever do will make Him love us any less. He came to Earth and died hanging on a tree after being brutally whipped and tortured because that is how deep His love is for us. Not a single person deserved that kind of love, yet He gave it to us anyway. He did all that so that we could live with Him for all eternity. That is a kind of love none of us can ever begin to fathom.